New mom confession: We took these pictures weeks ago (like 10 days after she was born) and it took me until this past weekend to finally finish editing them. One thing I love about Finley is that she loves to be held and is such a snuggle bug. But, one thing that’s hard about Finley is that she loves to be held so I don’t have full access to my hands to get things done. My mom guilt made me feel pretty bad that it every day editing these images was on my to do list and each day I just couldn’t get it done. I eventually had to realize that this is my new normal and I needed to give myself all the grace!Read More »
It has been a whole month since our baby girl was born and it feels oddly like it was yesterday and forever ago all at the same time. It’s 9:38pm on the night before September 1st and I am forcing myself to sit down and write out this post because 1) it has been on my to do list for awhile now and 2) I know I will be so mad at myself if I don’t. So… in the full transparent parent truth, I’m sitting here with the messiest bun, spit up on on my shirt, haven’t eaten and Sterling is taking one for the team trying to put Finley back to bed as she’s upstairs crying. Now this picture may seem chaotic (and it is) but through all the chaos and tears, mess and poop, this has been the most beautiful month of my life.Read More »
One of the things I was most looking forward to doing for our baby as new first time parents was picking out and building the crib. It felt like such a “parent” thing to do and made me feel like I was doing something specific for our baby. We bought our crib from Target and decided to get the one that will convert into a toddler and then full size bed when she’s older. We felt oddly particular about which one to get and spent a fair amount of time comparing different styles before settling on the one we picked. 🙂 Read More »
In the past few weeks, Sterling and I have once again been reminded that our privilege has held us blind to a system that is oppressive, prejudice, and racist. We keep coming back to each other asking ourselves what can we do. As we attempt to educate ourselves and address our ignorance, we talk a lot about ways that we can both be more of an ally. As we look deeply into our own responsibility as white people, we also have been evaluating our responsibility as future parents who are bringing another person of privilege into this world.
As we bring this new life into the world we know we have a strong responsibility.
A responsibility to protect this life and keep it safe and healthy but just as important, to teach our child to be a truly compassionate person. Someone who listens to people’s stories and who fights to stand up with others and what’s right. We want to raise this child to recognize injustice and not sit back as a silent bystander. Someone who stands up against bullies, whether that be an individual picking on someone in the hallway or a system designed to oppress. We as future parents know that we have to teach ourselves how to do this in our own hearts and then work every day to teach our children. Raising Baby Travis to be a person that others can lean on, trust, and talk to means being parents that demonstrate this every day as an example. By sharing this part of our baby’s journey with you, we hope to invite you in to help us and hold us accountable on this goal. They say it takes a village to raise children and we hope you’ll be a part of ours.
A year ago this month, doubt started to creep into my head. Something that seemed normal and easy for everyone else around me, was starting to not be easy for us. November had come and gone, December too, then January and February joined the mix of disappointments. Month by month I went from hopeful and excited to sad and distant. Each month I would take a test I dreaded knowing it would be no but secretly hoping I’d be wrong. Each no making me feel more and more like a failure.
I think the hardest part of walking through 12 months of NOs was that feeling of deep failure only to walk into the next month and have to try and find hope again. For me, praying kept me hopeful. I prayed and prayed and prayed that God would give us a chance. That God would give me patience and remind me that this was not on my schedule, my timeline, my control. Real talk? This sucked and was really hard. For someone like me who loves to plan and finds comfort in knowing, not having any control was disheartening. Part of me thinks God was waiting for me to stop planning, stop counting months, stop worrying and just TRUST him. Let go of the control, let go of the anxiety and fear and just give it to him. Read More »
Let’s keep it real. There may or may not have been a snake(s) in that field…. We will never know.
FACT about me. I am NOT brave. Not in an obvious way that is. I cry when getting shots, I jumped around like a LOON to scare away any snakes in this picture and I normally would NEVER be brave enough to wear a hat like this. I am a Plain Jane. I order what I know I’ll like at restaurants, am too nervous to online shop, and try to avoid change at all costs.Read More »
Our second year of marriage was really lovely! Compared to how many curve balls our first year threw us with changing jobs (twice for EACH of us), new schools, TWO moves and all the “did that seriously just happen”s in-between we learned how to lean on each other as the best source of stability and comfort! Which led us into our second year which was smooth sailing! Read More »
It has been a month since I’ve posted here on this blog and I have to admit that it kind of feels longer. (yikes!) I have so much content to post but am excited to start with a summer recap (part one) of the memories from time with friends and family!Read More »
After last year’s crazy summer of moving, I was so ready for this summer and the time to just relax. It’s been amazing! Best of all is that our summer has been really casual. Nothing crazy but just settling into those warm summer nights and taking on some home projects.
My favorite part about summer is being outside. I love going on long walks and spending time in the sun. I’ve gone to my parent’s house to be by the pool almost every weekend/chance that I can get and each night Sterling and I take the dogs outside and walk for 30 minutes or so. The girls love these walks! Read More »
On Wednesday we did something really special. We took a day off work and met up with Sterling’s sister, brother in law, and our niece and nephew to go to the National Aquarium! Now as a Baltimore native, I love the aquarium but honestly haven’t been in years, since Sterling and I first started dating. What made it the best trip out of all of them was getting to see it for the first time through children’s eyes.Read More »