A year ago this month, doubt started to creep into my head. Something that seemed normal and easy for everyone else around me, was starting to not be easy for us. November had come and gone, December too, then January and February joined the mix of disappointments. Month by month I went from hopeful and excited to sad and distant. Each month I would take a test I dreaded knowing it would be no but secretly hoping I’d be wrong. Each no making me feel more and more like a failure.
I think the hardest part of walking through 12 months of NOs was that feeling of deep failure only to walk into the next month and have to try and find hope again. For me, praying kept me hopeful. I prayed and prayed and prayed that God would give us a chance. That God would give me patience and remind me that this was not on my schedule, my timeline, my control. Real talk? This sucked and was really hard. For someone like me who loves to plan and finds comfort in knowing, not having any control was disheartening. Part of me thinks God was waiting for me to stop planning, stop counting months, stop worrying and just TRUST him. Let go of the control, let go of the anxiety and fear and just give it to him. Read More »
It has been a month since I’ve posted here on this blog and I have to admit that it kind of feels longer. (yikes!) I have so much content to post but am excited to start with a summer recap (part one) of the memories from time with friends and family!Read More »
On Wednesday we did something really special. We took a day off work and met up with Sterling’s sister, brother in law, and our niece and nephew to go to the National Aquarium! Now as a Baltimore native, I love the aquarium but honestly haven’t been in years, since Sterling and I first started dating. What made it the best trip out of all of them was getting to see it for the first time through children’s eyes.Read More »
A few weekends ago my family headed down to Bethany Beach, Delaware to celebrate Easter with our 95-year-old grandfather! Yes, 95 and still going strong! He lives down in Bethany and loves having us all over! My Aunt and Uncle headed down on Thursday and then followed soon after by Sterling, me and my siblings – Lindsay, John, and Bradley! Read More »
It’s finally time to announce Mommy and Me Minis! ::HAPPY DANCE!:: This is my second year in a row doing these fun spring minis and I love it! Last year I opened up only a few slots seeing as it was my first time hosting them and they sold out within a week! I’ve already had people reaching out to get on the list for this year’s sessions! I’ve got a total of 16 slots available and I’m hoping to fill up as many as possible while in Richmond! Read More »
With all the waves of change that have happened in the last few months all I wanted to do was escape and relax. Last week I got to do exactly that and it was perfect! The beach was super calm, partly because it was an off week and partly because the weather forecast predicted rain for the entire week. While the weather looked bad, like really bad, rain every single day all day kind of bad, I knew I wanted to go despite it. Even if it rained the whole time I just wanted an excuse to get away from unpacking and read some books, go on walks and eat junky beach food like broccoli bites (which are not as healthy as they sound) as much as I’d like.
It was an added bonus when my youngest brother Bradley decided to join me! We packed up the car and headed down to the beach. It rained on and off for most of the drive but oddly enough as soon as we passed Rehoboth and pulled up on Bethany Beach the rain cleared! While the weather called for rain every day there was only one day that it rained all day and we couldn’t go to the beach. Every other day was gorgeous and maybe had a rain storm in the afternoon or evening! The sun was warm, the ocean was calm and I got to sit and do nothing but read and relax. I ate a lot of broccoli bites…. like every day for four days worth of broccoli bites. While I would do it again because…DUH, it was a little awkward when the same guy took my order at the walk up window each time… hahaha! YOIKES!
I also got to spend time with my brother and some really good friends! My friend Bobby was in town at his family’s beach condo that week and on Friday Jessie drove all the way up from Richmond to join too! It was such a treat all the way around! I came back feeling refreshed and ready to take on new things! Thank God!
This past Saturday and Sunday I had six minis and they were awesome! Six families – some I have known for years and have been taking pictures of forever and some brand new families that were a blast! Read More »
My sister got a new puppy a few weeks back and let me tell you, she is the CUTEST! For me to say this means a lot too because I’m usually pretty biased in thinking that Winnie is the cutest but…. Lucy might have her beat… shhh don’t tell Winnie. Read More »
Disclaimer: This little post was supposed to be posted with tons of fun pictures and it got a little sneaky on me! This little bugger posted before I uploaded any images and so some of you may have gotten a little preview 🙂 So in case you did see it and wondered “Hey, shouldn’t there be pictures?” welp here they are! 🙂
For me, one of the best parts about summer is being able to go home and visit with my family. Well known fact about me is that I am from Baltimore and love my home town. Even at 28 I get homesick and crave being home in Baltimore. I find myself missing Maria’s Pizza, Orioles Games, and even the Towson Town Mall. 🙂 Above all of that though, I miss my family and getting to go home for long weekends or more during the summer is such a treat. Unlike Thanksgiving when we are driving mostly the whole time, or Christmas which is special in its own way with the hype and busyness of the holiday, summer is relaxing and provides a comfort that feels like normal life before joining the adult world.Read More »